Addiction is an Outcome | Forgive Yourself
the truth we do not see because we cannot forgive ourselves and debate what our disabled people are telling us
Addiction is an Outcome - Forgive Yourself
the truth we do not see because we cannot forgive ourselves and debate what our disabled people are telling us
By Daphne Garrido
My life is riddled with addiction. I’ve peeled it back and made it better many times. It’s not real.
Addiction is conditioned response from a world that fails us.
I was recently informed that people have pathologized my condition, one of schizophrenia I would love to have diagnosed but cannot due to my schizophrenic executive dysfunction, to be an outcome of the addiction it pushes me towards.
Cigarettes help me. I need something. That’s how it works for everyone.
You are an addict. You have something. You aren’t to blame.
It is only a monk who commits themself to a life outside of our societies, as-built, which escapes addiction. My plant medicine use is non-addictive and helps my symptoms. I use selective marijuana and the tobacco based Hapé or Rapé. The best thing a schizophrenic in healing can do — in my opinion — is use tobacco.
Cigarettes are an addiction.
People want me to get my addiction ‘treated’. They are denying and have pathologized the schizophrenia I have as a fraudulent existence of addiction’s consequence. That is backwards, upside-down, just like the world that supports the people sporting that idea into privilege. Everyone is an addict. Schizophrenics are like everyone. They are just also schizophrenic.
Stop feeling bad that you have addictions. Television counts. Phones count. Ice cream counts. Sex counts. Everything that you feel ‘neediness’ for counts except for love. That would be ridiculous. People actually need love.
That doesn’t mean you’re wrong to have it.
It means you’re doing the best you can.
