I Don't Know

a poem

It’s time for me to let it go

releasing all my false control

let things be just as they will

flowing with what’s here for real



being with who’s with me now

accepting that I don’t know how

to finally be free of this need

while letting hope survive in me



that person found—a hope so old

inspired me to be quite bold

to try and beg and push and pull

to swallow shit by the spoonful



thinking it might help them see

how it was I'd set them free

praying they would look again

at this person—once a friend



they’re so special in my eyes

it’s truly hard to summarize

quite clearly—I continue on

ever singing this same song




in the end, it’s what it is

I think my heart's just on the fritz

biggest thing I learned from you

I need someone who sees me too

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