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On How I Need Help - What Is Happening to Me
My Mental Disability and Meditation - I use a practice of meditation to clear myself, before exhibiting my executive dysfunction
Why I Cannot Survive Like This Any Longer - On the many things overwhelming my life for lack of ability to perform certain tasks via schizophrenic executive dysfunction
On Schizophrenic Executive Dysfunction - By Grok for me
My Dream of a Recovery Home for Schizophrenics - Demystifying the truth of schizophrenia can save many poor people from cruelest fates
I’m looking for a patron to help me on publishing and writing endeavors. I’m willing to work things to astute recommendation or co-write to keep moving forward if the circumstances are correct.
I would like to write for the stage as well.
Complete-Pass Books
Justiceers - Chapter One (Space Opera Epic)
Human Fire Power - Chapter One (New Adult Killer; The Foundry Series)
Time Bellow Gasoline - Chapter One (Book Two of The Foundry Series)
Time Throws Fire - Chapter One (Book Three of The Foundry Series)
Unfinished Books
Princess Starlit & The Icon - Chapter One (Ocarina of Time Hamartia)
Miriam in the Middle - Chapter One (Unfinished Justiceers Sequel)
Time Destroys Everything - Chapter One (Unfinished Book Four of The Foundry Series)
Fortuna Eterna - Chapter One (Unfinished Book Five of The Foundry Series)
Terror From the Deep - Chapter One (Unfinished Sci-Fi Horror)
Xianthium - Chapter One (Space Robot War)
And She Fell - Chapter One (Unfinished Dark-Alice-Sapphic)
Aura Asunder - Chapter One (Unfinished Magic School Takedown)
Last Rites of Empire - Chapter One (Unfinished Fantasy-Literature)
Ini & Oui - Hidden Chambers (First Short of Collection)
Beekeeper of the Dark - Caution (First Short of Collection, Transgressive, Psychological, Illogical Extreme Literature, Just Don’t)
Dead and Gone to Heaven - Chapter One (Unfinished Novel. Science Fiction. Best work yet.)
Radio Plays
Vicky Darkblood - Read the play
Holy Sword - Read the play
Short Stories
Daphne - Heavy Warning - The True Daphne Mythology
Mary & Jesus - Mary was one bitch. The Gospels are hers but bastardized. Jesus just killed a dude. Get over it. That’s what dudes are for. Ladies used to let them take all the credit.
Hypatia of Earth - This is the best written short story I’ve done, in my estimation, after final edits and cleanup. Think of it as written by Miriam Halafax of the Justiceers for the title. It was going to originally be called Honor of Hypatia. But I wanted to give her ultimate hero of Earth vibes. This is what we’ve done wrong, over again, and I think Miriam would appreciate most the sacrifice for living earnestly despite. I do not think it undermines the story or her character to land on love in the end. It’s beautiful. She’s still just a woman.
Those Deepest Woods - This is the third short story I created after A Foot in the Door, and Radical Pair. It was months and months later, and when I knew I could write whatever I wanted. The Grimoire was next. My subconscious and me have been flowing with fiction-prose ever since, every day.
Horrible & Lovely - I like this one despite how plain and painfully vulnerable it is. There’s a magic to that.
Radical Pair - Prequel short story to a book I need to re-write, that was my first—in notebooks—long before I was writing from my subconscious flow.
Grip - HOT, dude. HOT. And it’s my whole heart in need of healing too. F-Zero racing league vibes.
Heavy Dope: A Saga of Cybernetic Justice - I still think this is one of the funniest short stories ever written.
The Princess Was in That Castle - Romantic Tragedy Poem
the underworld (Redux) - My schizophrenic breakdown begins! This was what happened to me in a waking vision at the beginning of my subconscious trying to tell me I was schizophrenic and would apparently, be fighting a demon for some time relating another person I had trauma with. It’s also how my subconscious stoked me up to deliver a letter.
The Grimoire - It’s a spaceship, dude.
Pure Magick - This is the saddest thing I can imagine anybody ever having to write. perchance
A Foot in the Door - My first short fiction story, other than screenplays.
Chains - Alchemy of spite. I once let AI write something just like this and betrayed my own intelligence in a way I wanted to atone for. It was before I began creatively writing. I told the person. But I still hate myself for not writing that myself.
Harriet’s Voice - short story about trans misogyny
The Whore - This is about trans women being abused into people who are then demonized and of emotional degradation.
Justiceers - When I wrote this story I knew it was a novel. When I finished the twelve short stories I wrote starting with Those Deepest Woods, I knew it was time for the Justiceers book and haven’t stopped with long form in tandem. Hasn’t had any love in a long time.
Rhinestone & Calligula - What if we were The Milky Way as a soul, and Andromeda was something we already felt inside us through time? If you spun a rhinestone how would it look?
Willa - This sucks. But it’s all true. I hope it’s a cautionary tale at the end. Many of my stories are for now.
Before the Precipice of Time - this is literally the first thing I wrote as channeled from my subconscious
Older Short Stories, Unloved for Much Time
It Wakes - love is a mystery under the waves
Yaro Station - about being stranded from someone you love and going mad alone
Peace Waves - about a vacation I took by myself
Battle Breaker - explicit space vampire war legion
Good Boy - about me writing myself as a boy dog
Bones - my subconscious proving it was writing through
Essays
Ophelia’s Art World - my dream of a better future
The Worst Thing That Anybody Has Ever Done - how I was emotionally abused into extra-powered schizophrenic executive dysfunction, told comedically, as if I was a mother admonishing my childish and still clearly psychotic abuser
Seeds of Spring - on planting seeds for your year in the Spring
Her Journey to Now - on growing up trans and closeted
How it Happens - how the world might change one day with love
What it Means to Love - an essay on the meaning of love
Being a Victim of Unseen Sexual Abuse - on trans feminine sexual abuse
Capitalism… Why? - exploring why life hurts
Why Nobody Trusts Anyone | Emotional Manipulation is Not What You Think It Is - let’s get real
What Needs to Be Said - on trans genocide in the open
Existing as a Form of Resistance - on walking in public after Donald Trump was re-elected
Solidarity Between the Struggles of Black Folks and Trans People - there is a cognitive dissonance horror shared
Dancing into Flow - on dancing and becoming
We Are Demented and Holy - let’s unpack that
A Dance of Darkness and Light - on challenging love from the inside out, with lessons yet to learn and knowing it, holding it how one should, in my opinion
Meditations on YouTube
Meditation on Balance - Feminine & Masculine - Darkness & Light
The Space Inside Us - I did my best Mooji
Stand in the Truth of Love - I did my best me
Self-Healing Meditation - I teach baseline Reiki principles via visualization and instruction
Nourish Yourself with Exactly What You Need - Shamanistic self-exploration
Loving Your Unique Expression of the Universe - my favorite self-love meditation
Grounding Into Who You Are In The Moment - shamanistic exploration of connecting with your inner child, your future self, for radical acceptance of yourself in the now
The Spiritual Evolution of Humanity - join me at my timeless prayer tree for the future
Releasing What No Longer Serves Us - let go of attachment gently
Manifest from the Heart - connect with your future self and bring them into the now powerfully
Lay Down to Sleep - meditation for body rest
Stratosphere Meditation - video meditation for people who have trouble meditating
My meditations are also available on Insight Timer. Please sort by most recent.
