I’m sorry I project all the worst stuff at people. It’s been a rough go. Please help. I can be contacted wherever my face is found. The world has earned Qwang Flop. I’m just being real.
Blue Lotus tea and rolling had my crown bust open. I did a bunch of kundalini yoga as well. The plant medicine abuse was a failure. I am going to live as a beacon for the wrongness of western use of plant medicine. You project into your psyche what’s within the body, it’s just schizophrenia what people call kundalini-awakening. That’s my big tree top which I’ve grounded. Trauma did the work to make my schizophrenia terribly delusional, and in in waves. I had to dig deeep.
‘She’s a Qwang, dude.’
I’ve made friends with my subconscious now. It’s very kind to me. It likes that three ‘e’ deep a lot. It’s encouraging me to be bold and fight through my dysfunction, and lose the imposter syndrome around making words up that slap.
I’m not delusional, or paranoid, or afraid. I’m honest, and I hear shit from my subconscious. I’m truly honest to myself. And I’m terribly dysfunctional by society’s reflection.
My dream farm house situation could be anywhere. Contact Maria Griffin of Seattle (formerly Garrido) if you want less intense communication.
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How my peaceful subconscious has been egging me on.
‘Exactly, because your a Qwang.’
’Do that and you’re a Qwang, dude.’
’That’s perfect for the Qwang.’
I also write with people my subconscious aims towards and I know I’m simulating. I used to think I was genuinely feeling the other people in the future. I know that’s not it. That’s clear. I just trust. Because I do feel a bright future in my heart. It’s getting brighter.
‘You’re being a Qwang, dude.’
I hear things like this as affirmatives when I doubt the decision I’m making. ‘Gotcha’. And I hear other things. ‘Yup’ But it’s just like this nowadays. ‘It’s not, but say that.’ Then I thought, ‘what’s wrong about it,’ I just began the thought. ‘It’s just more complicated.’ Thinking about it. I’m just very solidified a lot of the time. It’s only when I’m not with people or focused entirely where that happens. Writing is a nut-bag-zone. (laughing)
‘I see.” Raimi Malek’s voice and laugh.
It’s a peace treaty that needs to be extended outward. That extension to the world-at-large is beyond my control. Reflections towards rightness in my DNA hate this place we’ve built for what it’s done to me. My body is rejecting near-everything. I need to be reached out to by the proper sort of helping hands.
Don’t order Blue Lotus from Pico Botanica. ‘You idiot. That’s the worst place.’
This is the Hape I like. Some of the blends are messifying. I like the Nukini Tribe and have looked for their products where I can.
Nukini Rose Hapé – Heart-Opening Feminine Medicine ‘This one is Qwang’
”I got it. She just talks to herself all the time.” Raimy Malek voice.
‘He’s going to love it.’
I’m racist. I think my subconscious locks onto him because I’m Mr. Roboting like a motherfucker and the blue lotus tea is the racist part.
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